I always feel like I’m misleading people when I post online.
Every “xD” and “ROFL” is a part of me. I grew up alongside them like middle school best friends. It’s those friends that grow distant, the ones you might text once in a while with no intention to meet. Or maybe you do catch up over a cup of cheap coffee and find that the ravine between you has split open too far. Things will never be the same.
Lately, that’s all I am online. I don’t care to overshare, and I don’t care to vent but that’s not all I am. That’s not all anyone is. It is a part of me, there is no doubting that. I guess I just haven't been satisfied in that being all I'm known for, even if it makes me happy.
I want to focus on things that aren’t for views and clicks and likes again. I’d love if people viewed them, and I do still work on these pursuits. It hasn’t been my main focus for about 4 months. That’s not a long time for a lot of people, but it feels like an eon to me. If I keep at it like this, it will quickly become that long.
Make a brand for yourself, people often advise. I did. I’m unhappy. I still like the work I make, but I feel like a rat in a tiny cage with no wheel and no bedding and nothing to dig my hands into. It’s only a matter of time before I destroy the bars or myself or both.
I don’t want to make content. I want to make art. I feel like I lost that for a bit too long for comfort.
All this is to say I’m going to be posting less art after May 19th. That’s when my backlog of things runs out. Maybe I’ll have something to show you by the 26th and my schedule will be the same, but I can’t guarantee it. If I do have something, I hope it makes you smile like the rest of it.
sincerity is not a crime,
May 4th P.S: I have been taking a step back from my art journey in general to avoid complete burnout. I’m very excited with where my recent ventures are taking me. More sparkledogs and other stuff to come. ily <3